B A D- R O M A N C E -Lily-

[James Ignatius Potter]

I want your love and I want your lover revenge
You and me could write a bad romance....

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There was no one on the planet that could get under James Potter's skin more than a certain. Miss.Lily Evans and she was under there right now like a thorn he couldn't get to. He was wondering if he was turning into a stalker becoming obsessive about her. The flash of her red hair and the way the light glinted off of it was enough to make him gasp and catch his breath. The scent when she passed by made his heart hurt. She was perfect, she was beautiful and she was the one girl he could not have. James sighed as he glanced up from the homework he'd been writing and he looked around the Common's room. It was quiet. It would be few people tended to be up this hour of the night. James himself should have been in bed hours ago but he had heard some disturbing rumors from a slytherin and he wanted to talk to Lily but he was pretty sure she'd not come in yet. She took Head Girl duties seriously and than those times she didn't come back to the Gryffindor Rooms at all. How did he know he watched he was up at odd hours. Did he tell, no because a part of him would always want that one girl.

He'd tried flirting with her that hadn't worked, He'd tried asking her out she'd sneered at him and told him not only no but hell no. He'd liked her on Hogwarts Express when she and Snivvy had been sitting together. Oh sure he'd mocked her kids did that sort of thing at eleven. Still he couldn't get that pair of flashing eyes out of his mind. He didn't try to say he was Mr.Perfect. He wasn't in fact he was flawed and knew it. Lily had rightly fussed at him for hexing people for fun. Would he have done it differently if he could. Well..yes, he would have wooed her the proper way. Since he didn't have that option now and there was rumors of her marrying Severus Snape. She couldn't do that it could ruin the rest of her life. Hell, the circles he went around in it could get her bloody well killed and James didn't want that. She'd told him that she loved Severus and that only made him hate that greasy git all the more. Not that either of them needed Lily as a bases to dislike each other. Lily was like an angel she was a bright shiny spot. He wasn't quiet like that, she could befriend any of the houses openly and no one would say anything about it. He on the other hand was of a mind you stuck to your own. Yeah he wondered if he'd been okay with it had it been someone like Sirius or Remus but a Slytherin and that one in praticular.

James jumped when the Porthole to the Common's swung open and he was no longer alone. He was glad to see it was Lily he just doubted she'd be glad to find him up alone waiting for her. He ran a hand through his hair ruffling it and causing it to stand up in the manner it always seemed to. He tried to pull a charming grin but was just not feeling it. "Hey, Lils." he said and before she could give him just a frosty nod he was on his feet. "I'd like a minute if you don't mind, seeing as its already late and a few more minutes won't make much a difference right ?" he asked. His dark hair falling in his eyes as he rubbed them behind his glasses causing them to lift up. "And yeah I am sleepy..." he confessed "I just need to talk."

[Lily Ann Evans]

She said we got to hold onto what we got

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It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not.
We got each other and thats all right for love we'll give it a shot
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Oh,we've got to hold on Ready or Not

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You live for the fight
When thats all that you've got[/color]
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it was late, it was very late come to think of it Lily noticed when she slipped back in from the Forest, there were still flowers in her hair and she managed to pluck the petals from the silky red locks but she couldn't see behind her to get them all properly. She was in luck that the Fat Lady merely looked sleepy at her and didn't have anything to say about the red hair girls appearace. She just swung open allowing Lily inside with the proper password. Lily glanced around the Common's normally there were little first years to get up nudge to bed that had fallen asleep in the room. She was surprised to find there weren't any in there at the moment. Still her surprise faded when James stood up causing her to jump only a little bit. Her lips quirking to the side. "For Morganna's sake, you almost gave me a heartattack James Potter." she hissed softly. One hand fluttered to her pulse and the other over her stomach.Snowflake was not with her she had trotted off towards the Owlery which meant she was going to coil around Othello Lily had long ago learned to not question the motives of Kneazles and Owls.

Lily hadn't missed that James was always flirting with her when he had the chance, nor did she approve of it. Still she couldn't very well control him as much as she'd like to make him stop with his childish pranks. The name calling and the hexing just for the fun of it. How could he imagine that Lily would want someone like that ? She had always been far to mature for her young years. She and Severus both for obvious reasons. It was why they were getting married one could simply not function properly without the other. Yes Lily was aware of the constant battle between the pair always going on. No she wasn't amused by it. She never got herself involved not because she couldn't but because doing so had damaged her relationship once already. Sev could fight his own battles and she knew it. Didn't stop her from snapping at either of them. Since her red headed temper was still only so checked in nature. She was well aware of the common thoughts about her marrying Severus, she'd heard similar thoughts from Severus because it seemed that Lucius had tried to talk him out of marrying Lily as well.

"I can not begin to imagine what you and I have to discuss or talk about Mr.Potter." she told him her tone frosty. Still at least he was being polite and not throwing hexs at her or yelling. He was by himself none of the other Marauder's lurking around to be his cheering squad. "Don't you think that being sleepy is a good reason to rest what little time you can ?" one delicate brow arching as she looked up at him. Dropping into a warm arm chair she folded her feet up underneath her and sighed softly. "Alright Potter, talk if it will make you feel better, blabber away." she leaned back in the chair and looked up at him. "Since I am fairly sure I am aware of what this is about, I just want to point out that I am not going to leave my fiancee so your likely to fall on deaf ears." it was the only real warning she could give him.

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[James Ignatius Potter]

He ran a hand through his hair and adjusted his glasses on his nose and squinted at her when she said he almost gave her heart failure and made a face. "Merlin, Lily what time is it ?" he asked. He suspected that yes he'd subcomed to sleep somewhere in there. His hazel eyes going over her she didn't seem hurt and he stretched before standing completely rubbing the back of his neck. Couches were not good for body parts clearly. "I won't ask you where you were." he added 'Since you likely wouldn't tell me anyways." there was a humor to his tone that he didn't really feel. He sighed as she moved around to be in front of the fire place allowing her to pass him with out reaching out and touching her though he wanted to. He wanted to hug her. Wanted to ask her if she was okay, she seemed to be going through so much lately and he felt powerless to do anything about it. He didn't sit down next to her chair but did linger there watching the fire between watching her. He finally reach a hand out to catch some of the flower petals that lingered in her locks. "Where ever did you find flowers, in the middle of the snow storms ?" he asked softly. Leave it to Lily to find one in all the grounds to actually grow them.

"What do we have to talk about ?" he asked staring at the petals in his hands. "Don't you think your rushing all of this..?" he asked "You've never even given anyone else a chance..mainly yours truly." he said with a frown. "I've been in love with you for--years Lily Evans." he stressed "No matter what I've done I've never been able to draw your eye, to attract your attention." he was fustrated certainly. "All I ever really wanted was a single date, but Snivillus always has your attention always keeps you close." he said with a frown. "Its like he's got you charmed Lils, and your the only one not seeing it, since I can't see what you see in him. I just can't." it was true that James didn't need a reason to hate Severus any more than Severus needed a reason to despise him. He was well aware that Lily seemed to owe loyalty to the Slytherin but he didn't understand why she'd never given him a chance. "Its not true that your getting married are you ?" he knew it was he had heard the other girls talking about what to get Lily as a gift. Still it seemed like a bad dream a nightmare.

"I would say that I can't sleep with things as they are but I feel asleep waiting for you." he managed with a shake of his head. "Is it possiable you were bespelled, is it possiable that your not even acting under your own will, I know you and Snivvy have been close for years, but really whats he got that I don't ?" he asked turning to pace in front of the fire she was sitting in front of. Looking down at her with a frown. "Its not looks, and its not wealth." he said "Cause I have both those in aces..and you know my mum and dad would love you and not be ashamed of your blood status either." he gave a sigh "I talk about you loads to them, and they would really like to meet you." he looked at her imploringly.

[Lily Ann Evans]

She said we got to hold onto what we got

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It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not.
We got each other and thats all right for love we'll give it a shot
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Oh,we've got to hold on Ready or Not

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You live for the fight
When thats all that you've got[/color]
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Her fingers brushed her time turner and she tipped her head to the side "Hmm, not to sure." she said as she waved a hand. "I already slept anyways, so I imagine its about four in the morning maybe five.." she answered not quiet gaurded but she wasn't going to tell him she was off in the Forbidden Forest with Severus. Not becuase she was ashamed but rather because she didn't think Potter really needed to know. Also there was the small thing of it being against some of the school rules to be out after hours, and she was Head Girl. Not that James Potter was innocent of such things.She knew she shouldn't be stooping to that level but what she wanted and what she actually needed were in conflict."well its good that you don't ask, because its none of your business." her chin lifted slightly and her lips set on edge she was biting down on her lip a habit she often stopped Severus from doing but she wasn't aware when she did it. She glanced to the petals of the flowers in her hands and the ones James held between his fingers and tapped a finger to her lips. "Green House ?" she asked innocently. 'There tigerlily petals and my favorite." she didn't touch the ones he'd taken from her hair but held the ones she had gathered in her hand to examine them rather than have to look at Mr.James Potter.

And it began again, the same thing she'd heard before and before and...it was growing tiresome trying to defend Severus which was defending herself as well. "Look, I don't know what you heard but.. she waved a hand at the tall boy than lost her words. "Did you ever think for once, in that small little brain of yours James Potter, that I didn't want to falsely lead anyone one ?" she asked her hands going to her hip. "You've been in lust with me James." she said with a shake of her head. "I am the one girl you can't have so that makes me appealing , if you got me I'd be another notch on your bed post and nothing more." her tone rising slightly with her temper which colored her cheeks and made her feel sick to her stomach at the same time. "You speak like he possesses me, like he owns me. That is not what love is, and that is not how love is either." Lily took a breath and mentally counted to ten. She had, had such a lovely night and now this. She took a step closer to James her eyes flashed like emerald fire in the flickering light from the fireplace. "Don't call him that, James Potter, or I swear on all I hold Holy I'll hex you so bad Pompy will have a hard time fixing you." her tone hissed and her eyes narrowing. Lily wanted to just hit him, but she thought that since she was going to be someone's mother she shouldn't be beating up people. Instead she held her hand out so the ring she'd been given by Severus glimmered in the fire light. "Does this look like I am kidding, like its not true ?" she asked tipping her head to the side. A sneer on her face and tears gathering at the corner of her eyes. "I don't know what your grief is with him, but were in the middle of a war, Potter." she pointed out "Nothing is going to ever be the same again, we should seize what happiness we can." she shook her head. "All you see is a bookworm who might not be a looker, and therefore an easy target, because he is competition to you" she felt dizzy. One hand going to her forehead she wondered if she could get a piece of fruit from her House Elf. Not while in the middle of fussing out James..but.

She was getting upset her anger was fading and the room was swimming she thought she might fall over so she weakly sat herself on the edge of the chair. She'd eatten good that night but she'd not had anything for hours. Maybe she should have stopped off on her way up here. "What does he have that you don't..." she asked "Again its all about you, you you." she yelled her voice raising with the strain of how she felt. "Never once have you ever asked about ME...its always how great it would be for you, for me to be with you.." she pointed a finger at him. "I would be no better to you than the Quidditch tropheys you've won, I would be nothing more to you than a conquest, what does Severus Snape have that you don't. He loves me, and love me unconditionally. He always has, he's never wolf whistled at me, or oggled me when I changed clothes, or talked to me like he owned me." she was feeling bad and she knew it wasn't good but her words had to be heard, and she had to get them out or they' fester."You wonder why Mary hexed you that time over telling me you'd stop picking on my boyfriend if I dated you...well I tell you why. You would have me sell myself to you on that account...its not right nor the actions of someone who loves someone else." he just kept going but she supposed he needed to get it out as much as she did. So she endured what he had to say. "Pfft, money never mattered to me maybe you should be looking at Tuney, but ah, she's already married, and looks." Lily met his gaze "You might not see him as Handsome, and I am well aware of how you tease him for his looks, but I find him quiet handsome, he's not the white knight but he doesn't have to be now does he, because he's the dark wizard." she rubbed her face with her hand. She really needed to get to the bathroom soon. Lily thought that she was over the whole Mudblood thing, but here he was bringing it up again, and tears spilled over her lashes. "How dare you bring that up again, so what people make mistakes, and I'm no better for name calling, yes it was aweful, yes it is aweful, do you think your any better for poking an old wound, to get your way ?" her voice was small now, he had caused her anger to freeze with those few words. She wasn't insecure about it, she knew Severus was dreadfully sorry he'd ever said that, he despised the word now and he snapped at people who used it. Rather than answer his final inquire about his parents Lily rubbed her eyes with her sleeve.
"I think that this is going to have to wait, I'm going to be sick, I need to go see Pompy." she told him. Her color had faded leaving her pale. She was use to dealing with the stress but James instinctively knew just how to crawl under her skin to make her hurt. She'd not wanted to deal with him to begin with and she never felt the best in the mornings, while she didn't have terribly morining sickness she was a small girl who caught sick when she wasn't careful. All she needed was the flu on top of a pregnancy. Not that she planned to mention that to Mr. Potter.

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• I've written this many words:1605
  
• I'm wearing this: School Uniform minus tie and sweater. Wand, a Cloak way to big for her. Messenger Bag and warm scarf.
  
• I just want to note : Good news made it through without a hex.
  
• I was listening to thisSave Me-Nickleback
  
• Credits: Living on a Prayer-Bon Jovi, This Layout Me...
  

[James Ignatius Potter]

James couldn't help but scowl slightly when she said she'd slept away with who ? as though he couldn't answer that question himself and as though he really deep down wanted to know. It might actually wound his not so fragile ego. "You get on me and the boys for being out late." he said with a shake of his head."Thats really late or really early pending on how you look at it." he managed a small smile out of amusement. He held his hands up and shook his head "Hold on Evans this isn't a fight..at least not yet." he added under his breath. James examined the small flower petals he held in his hands this one was a soft violet and pink and for some reason it made his heart hurt and he wasn't praticularly fond of that feeling. So he dropped the petal to the floor. She lvoes me one petal fell she loves me not the last one did. Perhaps there was something more to divinations than he'd ever given thought to.

"Led anyone one Evans...you know I have had a flame for you since you fussed me out on the Hogwart Express that first day with Sirius." he said with a snort. No technically it wasn't leading him on "You've told me no , no and more no at every turn, even when you weren't dating Severus." he said flatly. "I'm really not that bad a person you know. I have my flaws but who doesn't..the man you want to marry is whispered to be a Death Eater, Lily..a Death Eater." he stressed. "No matter how much of a git I can be I never hexed no one with Dark Magic." he said. "There's some lines that shouldn't be crossed and here you are not crossing them but jumping right into there arms. How will that reflect on your membership in the Order ?" he asked quietly. "He does own you, one look at the two of you together." he sneered. "You have eyes for no one else. " it was probly what hurt the most. Other than Lily thinking he was a lecherous bastard. "Sorry Lily, old habits." he bit back adding that would never die because they wouldn't there was simply to much bad blood between the two of them to ever be anything more than enemies. "Yes we should, and that precisely what I am trying to do." he said "However, the target of my affections is most resistant to that now isn't she ?" he asked "I am never going to understand your attraction to Severus Snape, he might be those things to you, but you don't see the other side of the man Lily, he's cold and caculating as well. He's Slytherin and your Gryffindor. If thats not a sign you shouldn't mix I don't know what is." her hand went to her forehead and for a second there he wondered if she was going to faint dead away. He paused and took a step closer not to touch her now but to catch her if she fell.

"Yes, I suppose it is about me, because its gotten to the point where your so not interested I have to point out my credentials like some prize breed." he huffed he didn't like being called out. She was so good at poking his ego that it was irritating him. "Lily how can you say that, I would worship you if you were my girl." he shook his head again "He loves you but its with a dark passion Lily, its like there's nothing he wouldn't do and some lines should never be crossed, but if thats really the type of man you want to spend your life with, given his alliances...what life you will have than there's not much I can say to change your mind is there ?" he asked quietly. More salt for the wound "You've let him see you undressed." he stuttered over his words and he blushed faintly. "I only did that to get your attention couldn't get it any other way." yeah it was a lame answer even to his own ears. "Yeah well Lily, you can see beauty in anything..." he made a face he'd never be able to see people through the same emerald gaze that LIly did. She was beautiful and her beauty wasn't just from the outside it was from the inside to, yet it was possiably why he was so mad about this girl. This girl who wasn't looking to well she seemed sick. He made a face and looked apologetic "I'm sorry Lily."he whispered and reach out to touch her sleeve."Hey Lil are you okay ?" than she said she thought she was going to need to go to the medwing, and his hazel eyes went wide and James for all his ego, still did love her. He nodded "Come on, I'll walk you there and I promise to keep my mouth shut too so not to upset you more." he said he resting a hand lightly at the small of her back unless she shrugged it off.

Note: If you want I will post a topic in the Medwing, since you know James isn't going to abandon her no matter how much of a fight they had. Don't do that to friends or loved one.